The last week of the summer holidays has been and gone and I can't decide if it's been fast or slow.
Actually, no. That's a lie.
Lets be honest here folks, it's been slooooow.
Not saying there hasn't been good bits. If I compare it to last summer where I was pregnant and stuck in hypermesis hell it's been bloody brilliant. And there's been some days this summer that I know I'll treasure forever. But the majority of it has been spent with my whingy 3 year old complaining she's bored and me desperately trying to come up with some new things for us to do that wont break the bank.
We managed though! We got through it! & now that the return to pre school is on the horizon I find part of myself wishing for a bit more time. Why is the grass always greener eh?
I talked in my last sibling post about how Lily was experiencing a lot of jealousy and resentment towards Archer of late and although I knew it was all normal, it was still kinda breaking my heart a little. Well this month, thankfully, has been much much better and for that I must breathe a sigh of relief.
September weather is so confusing I never know how to dress the kids! With Lily its not so bad as I can just put a cardigan on which she can take off if she gets too warm but since Arch can't tell me whether he's too hot it can be bit of a mare trying to dress him appropriately for our constantly changing weather.
I'm not one for doing massively personal posts but anyone who knows me will know that I haven't been myself since Archer was born.
I dont like to talk about it really. If I'm honest it makes me feel weak and I'm much more of a bottle it all up inside and keep on pushing it down kind of person, always have been. Which I appreciate isn't the healthiest approach to my issues but hey.
Anyway my blogging has been affected massively in the last 7 months. You may have noticed. You probably haven't. But I've noticed and it's been getting to me. I keep trying to pick up my camera and take photos or pick up my laptop and write but it's almost impossible when my own head is so full of white noise at the minute.
I'm getting there though, & I'm determined not to let something I love doing fade away into the background just because of what is hopefully a bad patch.